Thursday, May 29, 2014

FML

我真的是他妈的天生只能睡在狗窝 房间拾到整整齐齐了反而他妈的找不到东西 越乱越更他妈的好找 fuckmylife!!!

Friday, June 28, 2013

Have you ever felt so sick of your life? or everything just doesn't feel right and annoys you? I am feeling it right now. Sick of working, sick of looking for jobs, sick of my height, sick of face, sick of my life. Feeling annoyed for everything. I want a change in my life, I need a change in my life. I need a relationship, I want plastic surgery, I need more money!

Wednesday, May 29, 2013

That's not what I want

I don't think being short is a major problem for me, especially for a girl but sometimes I do feel very depressed because of my height, specially when it comes to work. It hard to find a freelance job when you're only 5''1. Most of the employees looking for pretty and tall female so it's easier to attract customers or crowd. I could understand if they want tall girls as a model job but why do they need a tall girl just to give out flyers? OK, fine! Tall girl can attract more people but you accept 155cm and saying 154cm is too short??!! urgh!! Being short is not what I want. Takkan I blame my parents for giving me a short body because both of them are short too? (fyi they are 4''9 and 5''3) It's not like I can put on makeup or go for plastic surgery if I'm not pretty enough or go on a diet and exercise if I'm too fat. urgh!! Stop judging on what short people can do!!

Wednesday, March 13, 2013

why...

Am I really doing it wrong? I always questioned myself, is it really my fault? I don't know. I don't like it and really don't want to be like this. I'm so sick of all this shit. Why is everyone blaming me? I don't understand, I really don't. I used to laughed and don't understand at the people who ended their life, but now I do. I really hate the current me. What should I do? Can I don't be a human being? I want to be a heartless person that I used to be?

Tuesday, July 31, 2012

Out of a sudden, I feel so sick of everything, everything in my life.
Sick of the people,
sick of the places,
sick of the words,
sick of the voices,
sick of everything,
and sick of myself.
I just want to run away,
run far far away,
to a place that no one could find me.
To a place that only me and the beauty of nature,
a place that I can do what ever I want,
a place that I don't need to put on a fake smile,
a place that I don't need to put on layer and layers of fake mask,
a place that I don't need to be careful of that I what I say,
a place that no one will hurts me,
a place that with no harms,
a place that with a pure heart...
I want to release everything,
I want to shout out the burdens in my throat,
I want to run like a wild fire,
I want to swim like a dolphin,
I want to fly like an eagle,
I want to lye on a big field with green grass as my bed,
the bright blue sky as my blanket,
with the warm smiling sun,
with the cotton candy like clouds,
with the birds chirping,
with my stressless heartbeats and thoughts.


Thursday, August 4, 2011

Targets of the year

  • get an official nice suit
  • dye my hair red(Nov/Dec)
  • get a pink banane bag
  • get a hot pink cover for my lappie
  • get a new phone(iPhone4?)
  • have a healthier lifestyle(is 11.40pm now...fail)
  • GPA of >3.00
  • save $$(but out of all the above, 5 of it need $$...T^T broke gao)
*thats all for now

Kay.Thanks.Bye <3<3

Friday, July 1, 2011

will you hold it against me...


feel so depress and emo but i don't know why
always tell myself have to be strong but whenever something happened, i can feel my heart crack
always told myself not to cry but it fail
i want to be the old me, the one has no much feelings and cold blooded me
so i won't feel so hurt, no tears and no emotions
i hate the new me, so weak and so emotional